Tonight

Dear Happy Little Blog,

I'm sorry I have been neglecting you. It's just I have not felt particularly happy lately. I just recently got a job that I am not so thrilled to have, but you know what they say... gotta pay the bills (although I don't quite exactly have bills to pay...). I've just been quite stressed lately because i feel terribly lonely. The pressures of life are starting to kick in and it makes me sad. I want to sew and paint and skip but now I've been working on various things and worrying about things and just trying to keep it together. Social stresses are getting to me as well and it makes me want to be alone but surrounded by people all at once. I feel like whenever I try to focus and get ahead i feel myself falling further and further behind.

My heart just seems to ache and jealousy never seems to leave me alone. This has been an on going problem for my whole life and I really need to get over it. The fact that I know it is a problem though doesn't make it any easier though. It just makes it more difficult.
Ha maybe I should just join a ten step program.

At least Volume Two by She&Him has came out (I just bought it on itunes!) maybe one day I can be as cool as Zoeey.

But as I sit all scenic-like with the table light on waiting for my phone to ring I suppose I can vent to a blog.

That's the most logical thing to do anyways.