:/

*is very upset with current emotions*
this is the most upset ive been in a very very long time

and nothing has really gone wrong

its just the fact of that things will not stay this good
which is very pessimistic of me i know.

and then the fact of a small medical concern which i dont even know if its a concern
but may require an appointment and i hate doctors/ doctor appointments.

and then the fact that i cant hold a decent conversation anymore.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Blue Moon

Sharpie / Water Color/ Pen = Blue Gray Mermaid Girl Without Arms Howling at the Moon

bleghblahlbloo

Dads Bday Present.

Not my best. At All.

I am not reaching my full potential as of late.

Oh Well.

This is my face right now.

the box

I don't think there is anything better than writing and recieving mail.
No I do not mean email. I mean those letters that you right on stationary and you try to write it in cursive just so the person who is getting the letter thinks you usually write in cursive because its pretty. Pretty people seem to write in cursive a lot.

I've neglected both my livejournal and this blog. I used to livejournal all the time and I really regret not keeping up with it. I believe I am going to start a new journal though, as in an actual book with paper in it.

I just wanted to say though that I once talked to a friend about how everything is a circle. Everything is a cycle. When I was younger there was this one class where there was a wall where we can post anything we wanted. Some people voiced political messages, others inspiration quotes, and some jokes.

It's really strange though that we collaborated though. We all wanted to say something. Now I dont really want to say anything. I just want to do something, hear something, or feel something.

I think thats the problem with my lack of motivation to write.

I have come to say that I do not like writing and that I'm bad at writing.
I don't think its so much that as it is that I have nothing really important to say.
Everything that is importance is already boxed up and figured out in my mind.
This box is so perfect and it all makes such perfect sense. Why would I want to put it out there to be torn open and ripped apart?
Then things start getting confusing.
Things begin to be overanalyzed.
Things are no longer what they seem.

So I'll just keep these precious things in the beautiful box in my mind.

oh it is love.

I fell in love today, with a dress. I have not felt this way about an article of clothing in a while. I have begun to feel a bit numb towards my clothing, the same old thing with the same old details. HOWEVER while adventuring on etsy I found my perfect match.

for sale by kirbyvintage on etsy. The pale yellow and lace detail...agh its just so precious. I want to wear it and drink a cup of tea and then dance to a cello in a field of daisies.

(ps janna im sorry for the gramatical errors in my blog posts. i just get too excited to pay attention.)

:P

Guess who finally got her permit?!


yep.

What to do at 4:52

Today is January 5, 2010

after school I was picked up and went downtown with Chris

as we sat in the parking lot waiting for the time to reach 5 so we had free parking we decided to write a poem.

"What to Do at 4:52?"

What to do at 4:52?

Get out of the car, and buckle your shoe

Then walk to town and find a bench

You may just run into a pirate wench

And when the coldness starts to hurt

Spending time together is definitely what its worth

And then it was 5 o'clock

just wanted to share that tidbit

because it made me veryvery happy.

:]

watercolor

So I feel now that I should include a picture, to actually record any kind of progress.

(I made him too big for the page...now he probably has self image problems. sorry.)

I've been practicing painting fashion drawings in watercolor (but these are not on watercolor paper)

Im hoping that I can just practice a whole bunch to get better.

I guess thats what everyone wants when they practice something though..

anyway here you go.

yep!